Aqil...Adib..Adlina...

These three are the best gifts in my life (of coz..after AMir)..nothing compares to them although at times, they could challenge my patience to the limit...

Adib aka Along
in maahad muhammadi now...unpredictable...looks very soft and obedient...but the eyes will show when he does something wrong...a bit self-centred at times...Umi really hopes that one day u'll climb the laddder to success...in your own way...u r just too special...call him once, he'll be beside me immediately...

Aqil aka Angah
my big boy who insyaAllah will follow Along soon to MML...looks strong n tough but really umi-boy...try to use loud voice with him...u'll see tears in his eyes..a caring n loving boy...somebody i can rely on when i've problems... call him for ten times,,he is still not beside me (too relaxing at times)

Adlina aka Adik
my youngest and the only girl in this house...naughty, a bit lazy...sometimes can be very cunning...brilliant with great ideas (sometimes crazy ones)...umi prays that one day , u'll be a perfect girl...knowledgable, considerate..full of tolerance ..the best uban-seeker ever....


All three of u have a special place in my heart...nobody can replace that...

he never changes

8.9.2010>> Diena's birthday..we just celebrated it at new horizon with a few of amir's nephews n nieces...(what surprise me tough...HE never thinks of inviting any of my own clan from pc...dunno..i have to adjust myself to his family but i feel that he is always reluctant to try to be in mine except for abah la...susah kan...may be we are from different family background but sometimes he treated my family unfairly....

Then, at home, we have another small celebration with the other family members( again...HIS family members) ...HE really likes to get the attention fromthem..being pampered by them...sometimes i just feellike he wants all the attention as to be NGAH...dunno, but HE is now 40s and i personlly think he should act as one. In the midst of our happiness celebrating dieyna's birthday, suddenly he stormed in..."anak2 abah..no more laptops after this..bla..bla..bla..." Just imagine my feeling there..this is not the first time...he actually like to burst out his anger to my kids infront of his nieces n nephews...dunno..but deep inside me, i just thinkthat he wants to show his power of being able to control the 3 iman...sian anak2 aku..selalu kena tegur depan orang..but then, when HE speaks to his nephews n nieces..his intonation n tone are different..lembut giler n concern giler....

I just wonder...what do u expect from us...your wife n your kids???????tak cukup ke dgn apa yg kami buat samapaikan susah nak telus dgn insan yg kami panggil suami n abah??????Dunno...sometimes i feel dry n sometimes i feel that....i wish....

rewards for teachers???

It seems to be interesting when the ministry announces all the benefits that the teachers will gain. Still, i personally feel that it is not for all teachers..instead it is the incentives for those who are teaching in good schools...what i hope is that 25 ss per class will be achieved soon...i'm tired of shouting at 41 ss perclass...just too tired. This year, teachers' day celebration was great but i still search for the missing piece...am i not a good teacher yet???? just wonder...
Sometimes, my patience just blew away...i couldnot control my emotion...dealing with these ss really pissed me off...but then, i enjoy guiding them when they are willing to be with me. Thta makes me wonder, what is lack in my teaching????