FRANCE...

FRANCE....Friendship remains and never can end ...this is true...really true....i can be friend with others..those who can talk freely with me...but with HIM..because of that status...because of that old relationship..because of the feeling that we once were involved in...we can never be friends...it is like a huge barrier exists between us..we can never be friends..why??? i really wonder why???? Can we just put aside all the old memories and move forward n begin our relationship again..as FRIENDS???

It hurts...i cannot deny it..it hurts to read others' comments about U and how U can converse w others but not ME....it hurts..deep inside...CAN WE JUST BEGIN A NEW RELATIONSHIP??? jUST LIKE OUR OTHER OLD FRIENDS???CAN'T WE????

A WIFE IS A MERE RECEIVER?????

Dia buat hal lg....just because of THAT...and just because of the expression "tak apa la...", im back in hot soup....smtms i just do not know how to react any more...am i a robot???am i a money provider only???am, i not having any feeling????

He just came back from sending along n angah to their arabic class...without saying a word or even a smile to me...he just went out again, i guess to pasar tani...not as usual..he would want me to tag him along..not even a word and i am now confused...just because of that friday nite????this is indeed not the first time i am being treated like this...so..so..so many times,,,until i dont want to count it any more...but i keep feel wondered WHY????

Does he think i am a creature who will be treated nicely if only i serve him dearly??? lovingly????and give my body all the time needed???? Ya Allah, laknatlah kehidupan aku jika aku gagal memberikan yg terbaik untuk Dia..but sometimes i just do not know WHAT did i do wrong or..may be i am a slow learner??

Isit true just because of that??? and now i have to face his cynical look again?????Crazy like hell...