I can feel the difference....the age matters....
Masuk je 2011....i can feel that there are still empty spaces in my heart...smthng went missing in my life...after i sit down and think..exploring myself..i realized that im too dunia-centred...i am really lacking trhe knowledge for the world hereafter...Ya Allah...thank you to make me realize this...i want to go back to the righyt pah..i know. my friends will always be there to help me...t support me....i cannot count this on my family mnembers....
Looking back at the experience in my can i say that in some way, abah failed to educate us to be good human beings..i guess because abah is too self-oriented, too self-disciplined that he forgot that we \are also humans...I am talking about abah bafore he becomes atuk...because now i can see the difference although at times ideep down in my heart i still say how self-centred abah is....kalaulah abah boleh mengalah...balik ke ruamah kok pasir...i think many problems will settle...kalaulah Tang ada rezki n move to another house...i think problems will settle...kalaulah apis duduk n fikir sekejap sikap dia yg makin pelik ni n cuba adjust..i think everything will be fine...kalaulah ibi tak terlalu fikirkan diri, tentu dia balik masa tang kawin n tentu dia balik masa ije meninggala...nak tunggu event apa lagi yg nak kumpul anak beranak???? tak tahulah aku, there is something went missing n this family...and i dunno what...
I just want to put my own family at the right path...aku nak adib, aqil and adlina bersatu sbg satu keluarga...what i can do now is to gather them, talk to them....give them the religious fouindation,...Ya Allah...lindungilah keluargaku...suamiku...anak2ku...abah sekeluarga....amin
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